Monday, May 3, 2010

Puzzle Pieces of My Heart

Two years ago, I spent my freshman year at Concordia NE. While I was there, God gave me the most amazing group of girls - they became my 2nd family. Even as I struggled with my depression, my cutting, and my self hate, they managed to see something in me worth loving. On the days I couldn't crawl out of the pit, they came down and sat with there with me, holding my hand until I could breathe again. When I couldn't remember what joy was, they gave me reasons to laugh. They told me I was beautiful when I hated what I saw in the mirror. Together, we shared a thousand little moments that I strung together and clung to - moments that helped me remember why I kept fighting.

Today, we're spread out. Some still at Concordia, some, myself included, in other states. I don't get to talk to them on a daily basis or know all the little details of their lives - and that's hard. I miss that closeness. But it's ok, because, like family, these girls love me unconditionally, no questions asked.

It's as if, when I left concordia, I left a little piece of my heart with each of them. And when we're back together, they all just click into place, like puzzle pieces. I love knowing that no matter how far I am from them, no matter how much time passes between our visits, we will always be Us.


  1. you were always perfect to us! lots of love no matter where we are or where we go. always there for you and I know your always there for me!plus you cant get rid of your family!!;] They always come back!!! lol

  2. omgsh! that tugged at the heart strings FOR SURE!

  3. Kylee,
    You definitely just made me cry. And I miss knowing all the details of your life too. And I miss pulling up my shorts at you and hugging the wall with you, but every time we are together again, it's as if we were always together - we always just pick right back up where we left off. I am honored to have a piece of your heart, and you most certainly own a piece of mine. Love you Ky. You are beautiful.

  4. love that you have those people in your life! i know how your heart feels...

  5. you're wonderful. beyond wonderful perhaps. :) i love everything about you and me and when we're together. i'm so fortunate to have someone like you in my life. i hope that at some point i can see you on a more regular basis. i love you to the moon and back. and since we're including memories....
    1. i'd definitely attend your funeral.
    2. i'm glad that you found someone "normal" at cune :)
    3. i'll nap next to you ANYTIME.
    4. i'll go through inappropriate books and talk about inappropriate things probably as often as possible.
    5. i'll never stop loving you.
    <3 OlYmPiA.