Faith

the snow rose up
frozen sand
a wild
violent dance.
and i stopped
waiting for the
road to
reappear.
i watched
as it ran
across fields
waist high
and stole the breath
out of the night sky.

in the distance i found
a streetlight
and headed towards.
believing,
all though invisible
the road still remained.
believing,
all though distant
the light was real.

for Keeps

the thing is,

you can't stop once you've started.

even as the needle is scraping across your bone,

and you're holding your breath.

but i loved it that much.

i held isaac's hand,

even after it went numb

to make up for lost time.

my artist had bed head and a

baby girl with the chubbiest cheeks.

she layed passed out on the couch

and i smiled because of her

even as it burned.

because i loved it that much.

the thing is,

we're family. no matter where we be.

Heaven. Earth. America. Iraq. Minnesota. South Dakota.

Some things you can break.

but not Us.

only a Brother

Caleb: He's lying to you

Me: Excuse me?

Caleb: You're not fine the way you are...

Me: *jaw drops*

{mom punches caleb}

Me: I'm not THAT fat

Caleb: Oh! Yeah, you're fine - I thought we were talking mentally

{I fall off my chair laughing}

::267 days::

23,068,800 seconds

384,480 minutes

6,408 hours

267 days

and i would wait longer, if i had to,

just to have your hug back.

Welcome home, Bubba.

Rediscover

I may not be a natural

or even that talented

But when I play, I hear the song I can otherwise never find

After we lost Bryan, my desire, my love for piano faded.

Alot of things faded.

But now, I'm rediscovering the craving.

To create. To learn. To live.

they are that feeling

You know, we complain the whole time about how much we hate this drive....

but honestly?

I think it's when we've had some of our best talks.

That feeling,

when your heart pushes out of its seams?

My family is that feeling.

waiting

I remember when I went away at 18, my first time to college.
And I had to go 2 months without seeing my little brother

It felt like an eternity.

And now I've gone 8 whole months without seeing that awesome kid!
Thankfully, that's all about to change --
in a matter of days
BUBBA IS COMING HOME

eternity is about to end =)