Encourage&Inspire:: 4

It's been one of those weeks,

where I doubt who I am -

 as a friend,

as a photographer,

as a christian. 

The thing is,

it's ok to doubt.

Because if we doubt, 

we question, we search,

we discover.

And in doing so, unearth

the better, truer 

versions of ourselves 

Where we Are, is Really Not so Bad

I
am a naturally selfish person.
I complain
often
so people understand
just how darn hard my life is
{although lets be real,
it's not}
and feel sorry for myself
on a regular basis.

Then
I work next to a friend
who's sister is
recovering  from
a double mastectomy
and suddenly
the tears in her eyes
put life back into perspective,
the catch in her throat
shifts priorities back into place.

Because
while exhausted,
I am alive
and while not ideal,
this body is whole.
My family
may be rough
and raw around
the edges but
they are mine and they are here.

It
surprises me
that even after
losing and learning
things the hard way,
after promises of life
with no regrets,
I still forget.
I still take these blessings for granted.

lets be thankful for where we are, instead of waiting for something  to remind us how good it is

Encourage&Inspire:: 3

One of those days I wish adults had snow days too... 

But really, I'm just thankful that we didn't end up with that much snow...unlike the poor east coast!! 

And I had an excuse to wear my awesome turquoise hat, so all in all it's a pretty good day =) 

found this after writing my last post...AMEN is all I can say

You might have heard Jill's story already, but if you haven't, go read(watch) it here on Sue Bryce's blog....and if you can make it through this beautiful woman's fight with cancer without crying, you're stronger than I am! 

If I had to say one thing to describe what I want to do with my life..this would be it right here

Feather Paperweights

years ago, in the midst of my depression, one of my greatest fears was that I would would never be enough for a man. {i hate admitting that...i know we should look to Jesus for our worth, not men.}

but every day i woke up and told myself, no man will ever want you. i ached to be desired. i thought if i was desired, I would  have worth.

years later, i have learned, finding a man to want and desire you isn't hard
but finding a man who yearns for your heart
your thoughts
your friendship ... that is another matter.

you see, desire can be a cheap thing, a fragile thing, a temporary thing. it only lasts for so long. and more importantly, desire does not mean someone finds value in you.

in my experience, being desired can leave you emptier than when you began. like feather paperweights, desire without love, affection, or commitment, doesn't do much.  i don't know about you, but I don't want the cheap, the fragile, or the temporary.

i want the real, the long term, the trustworthy.

being desired does not prove you have value. whether cheap or real, waiting for another person to affirm you can love yourself is unneccesary. you are worth loving right now. as you are, in this moment .


"As you come to him, the living Stone - rejected by men but chosen by God and precious to him -"

 -1 Peter 2:4