aching thoughts

i woke

with an aching in my jaw

the result

of grinding teeth

in the night,

the Stress

eating away at me

in my sleep

i'm quiet today

and i think it confuses people

these whirling thoughts

are just so loud

Unraveling

She forgot to put her face on
as she ran out the door,
late to work, late to life,
hair running wild into curls,
jeans spilling hapharzardly
from winter boots.

Used to the abrupt splintering
of her usual falling to pieces
she didn't recognize
herself unraveling until
she discovered the fibers
pooling at her feet.

Not of this World

This world is not my home.
So of course the path is steeper,
the choices harder,
the pain stronger.

I was not created to fit in,
but to stand out,
to shine through,
to withstand.

I just want to be strong enough
to live for Him

wednesday

dragging out of bed
energy drink in hand
8 am class
little lollipops
dreaming dreams
talking photography
laughing deep
a little brother moment
smiling just because

today is wednesday and it's good :)

:: identity ::

who i am,

first and foremost

forever and always.

His.

.love.is.

i think love is
taking off
your mask
and letting
the breath
out of your lungs

and still feeling alive

big brother

the voice,
thick with sleep,
i hear pick up
at 5 am
as i'm in tears

the silence,
warm and strong,
comforting
as i spill
my heart

the words,
patient and calm
bringing me back
to a place
i am safe.

the friend,
who's been there
my whole life

with Silent Prayers

We sit in the shadows of your room,

Sorrow in the music clawing at the walls,

The glowing orange of your cigarette

Floating between your knuckles.

I watch you brush jagged pieces of your heart

Off your knee like crumbs to the floor

And I gather them into my lap

To paste back together with silent prayers.

why i Smile at work

{1} "Kids, do you know where flour comes from?"
"From flowers!"

{2}"No, we're not going to eat the playdough. Think of all the germs!"
" It's ok, if you sing the ABC's, they come off!"

{3} "Teacher, do you think I'm deaf?"
"No."
"But you keep asking if I heard you..."

even when you're Crazy

at the end of a long week
i sat on a child sized chair
at a child sized table
and teetered on the edge
of my emotions

i laughed
so i wouldn't cry
and talked
so i wouldn't think
colored the paper
ripped the paper
stapled the paper

friends sat confused
stared softly
laughed nervously
and shook heads --
one drew me a picture
"kylee," it read
"i love you,
even when you are crazy"

i felt myself take one step back from the edge

{sending}Hugs

Do you ever wish

there was a way

to send a hug

straight from you heart?


I think my heart would be constantly mailing out hugs.

did you Know?

I treasure

the laugh

I only find

when I'm

with you.

days like This

Today
is considered
an accomplishment.

Because I
crawled
out of bed

When I really wanted to stay.


[ohhhh tuesdays]